How i feel.

i can show you how i feel. yes, i'm about to rant and rave, i'll try to keep it controlled, but this also serves as your warning. ...OMFG!!!! i am certainly annoyed with a few people right now. first this girl that i helped earlier this week, well, she just wore me out. like i'm trying to be all understanding and stuff, and i CAN relate... but shiet, it takes A LOT of effort to fake that kind of emotion.

[why is faking emotions sometimes soooooo HARD!!!! but faking orgasms aren't? puzzling fact of nature... lol ]

ug, and i felt bad and all but ug!!! she like emits these tsunami waves of NEEDINESS. AH!!!! clingy clingy clingy!!! :( ewwww. I HATE THAT. and this other chick. OMFG. she just did something right?...hmm.. we'll say... "she peeled an orange". ok? well yea, so every other word is like "I PEELED A FUCKING ORANGE" and no matter what we are talking about she finds some way to weasel in the fact that she peeled an orange. and i'm sure you can see how annoying that can get time after time after time. its like shiet, we ALL know you peeled a damn orange. get over it already. like almost all of the group can peel an orange. its not that cool to be reiterating it over and over. and then anthony and his, "hey RL" ug!!! its seriously annoying, i wish he could just see that i'm not playing around... i really DONT like when he says that. and then this other dude that shall remain UN-NAMED. yea, hes totally pissing me off because...kjfbvixxmihssimixxiubib... kinda. like. i mean... iono. its just weird. :( and like i wouldn't take it again, but... yea. anyways. another guy ticking me off... hmmm. i need a nickname for him too... [teeheehee] his name is frogger. well this frogger guy needs to stop being such a DOG!!!! ug. and darren needs to be nicer :P .cause it turns out, he and colette and gabe are the ONLY people i've been telling almost everything to. i need to call colette.

AHHHHHH!!!!! i despise clingy, harping, needy,& tiny, people.

and i feel so disgusting. bleh!!! low point. low, low, LOW, L-O-W point. ew ew ew ew!!!!
how do i get away from it all. I AM SO GOOD AT ERADICATING MY EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENTS AND LINKS TO PEOPLE. I CAN WALK AWAY AND NEVER SPEAK OF IT AGAIN. but apparently others aren't.


UG. i need a hug. :(



high points of today: drove. got my books from the trunk. ate lunch. laughed my ass off. over heard about the formspring quarrel. drove with darren down whatever street that is. and drove. and drove. and drove. and oh!!!!!

ok new bracket, this isnt under the high points anymore, so today im driving home from school, and this fucking bastard in front of me is staring at me through his side mirror. and at first i didnt notice but then he scoots up at the stop light and like turns the car all crooked so i'm like WTF? and then i see his beady pervy eyes staring. he fucking angled the damn truck just so he could stare. what a bastardly pervy prick. i think i'm going to bring a sweatshirt in the car to cover up. i mean. cute guys checking me out? ok. late 40/early 50 year old man? HELL TO THE NO. UG. and he was like STARING! he went back and forth between the rearview mirror and the side mirror. ug. damn perv. i think i almost hate driving now. he fucking angled the car. like seriously i dont know if you understand. he was like at a 45* position...

|\| < perv dude. taking up almost a whole lane and a half.
|@| < thats me. like a normal fucking car should be positioned waiting for the light...

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those are the lane lines..



so yea, anyways. imma do homework now...hug me tomorrow please. lol

xoxoxo steph.