Thursday.

well it would seem that both victoria and cammi have something similar on their minds. and maybe i saw the correlation because i'm thinking about the same thing...

It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own. But the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

^^[via victoria]


<<[via cammi]








Anyways. feel like i haven't been in here in a while... even though its only been a few days. updates... nothing much. took a bunch of tests today. oh. and my mom went to pick up my brother and the mail came. guess what was in it? yes. the mother of all disappointments. MY GRADE REPORT. so, i actually hid it. :O i've never done that!!!!! but i really just did not want to deal with my parents yelling at me before i left on my trip. my plan is when they drop me off tomorrow and are all like:
"Awww, we miss you! have a great time! we love you!!!"
 i'll be all:  "oh btw. the grades were in the mail yesterday. i left it posted on the fridge behind Everything..... BYE!!! love you toooooooo!" 
parents:  -___- & -____-


hahaha hopefully that works out for me. iono. what if they see my grades though and make a decision WITHOUT ME??? thats where i don't know if this is the greatest decision... we'll all find out soon enough though. Anyways. picked up a balloon order form today from asb. it looks like i'm going to spend $10 just for balloons... but i still need to make sure of a few details... like if they are showing up on their birthday?!?!?! hahaha. don't know how 'im going to do that though... if i ask it will be obvious. and that ruins the beautiful surprise. i love surprises. 
tomorrow is friday, March 12, 2010. afterschool at five. i'll be on a bus with a bunch of other 3rd year churchly students on my way to retreat.  Sacred Heart Retreat Camp, 896 Cienega Rd. BIG BEAR to be exact. i hope i don't freeze my cute little booty off over there. :P it should be snowing which is nice... i think i'm bringing the biggest suitcase i have though this time. BIGGER IS BETTER. (and i m not just talking about suitcases ;)  ) 




hmmm... what else happened today? ART ROOM. oh!! wait. hahahaha   hahaha we ate in ART ROOM. it was weird. like ameer said, "You know when all those kids go back to Narnia, and they are all weirded out cause its almost too good to be true... thats how i feel."  hahaha nicely said. and we blared music and i need to bring christian 2 CDs so i can get all of kid cudi.  :D yay!!!


well in case i dont post tomorrow right after school...
I hope i learn a lot this weekend. get in touch with myself. discover myself and something new. make MORE friends. rest. learn. get a snowball fight in :). chill. and learn more about my savior. 
hopefully this experience will bring me back on track...although...right now. i kinda doubt that it will,  i'm just too...?... EVERYWHERE right now... you know what i mean? like too sporadic. i guess im just not in the right mindset right now. but i hope this weekend turns out to be a positive thing.
i hope my parents don't go berserk over my grades.
i hope he comes to school.


*knock on wood*


and i hope  TRUST in God....


xoxoxo,
stephanie.

BTW: i just wanted to say, I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS!!! everyone i see each and every day, and everyone i think about everyday, i love you. you make my days worth living and you always bring a smile to my face :D ~thanks.