i can show you....

So on thursday after nick's basketball practice some stupid lady hit my car as she was backing up. It wasn't a big deal, but she was being a bitch, and it didn't help that I already had so much on my mind, and then memories of my first car accident popped into my head and didn't help much either. ugh. then friday. and calc test... hopefully I did good. and then lunch. and how lunch HAS BEEN. It's getting worse. and I have mixed feelings. I like the side comments. Like I usually enjoy them. But when everyone starts piling on and joining in it gets carried away. That was the irony about having him as my bff. I did enjoy that to a degree. but now that he's gone, everyones trying out for the position it seems. perhaps behaviorally I've put out a NOW HIRING sign? I don't know. But I have to be careful with my decision. I can't take them all. And it amazes me how dah used to be the only one claiming that spot and now when it happens he doesnt add in. he's SILENT. I think he laughed once when someone called him out. And oh god, why do i even let this happen. I am just wondering now if " I CREATED THAT?" am i creating this too? 

writing down my feelings into this blog makes me feel like a psychologist for myself. -____-

I wonder if thats why I left this blog stuff alone for such a long time.